A lot of things have taken me by surprise through this journey - the intensity of my emotions, the depths of despair, discovering hope when I thought there was none. The list could go on and on. One of the biggest revelations for me, however, has been the number of people who have ignored the [...]
Month: July 2017
Celebrating the small wins
When Benjamin died everything fell apart. I couldn’t do anything. I felt completely useless. The smallest of tasks felt impossible. I might as well have been trying to climb Mount Everest. In my previous life I was a high functioning, achievement-orientated person who had to be in control of everything. Forward planning was my speciality. [...]
Will it ever get any better?
It has now been 11 weeks since we lost Benjamin. One of things that has haunted me through this whole experience is the overwhelming feeling of hopelessness. I have a fear that I will never recover from losing my first-born child. The persistent feeling of sadness and despair over such an extended period is really, [...]