Well, it's been a little while since I've found myself tapping away on these keys. Since Benjamin’s death writing has in many ways been my saviour, an outlet for all the pain and suffering. So, to stop it, for me, has been hard. But I have needed time and space away to think, to just [...]
First Published at Still Standing Magazine How do you control the thoughts in your mind? How do you stop them from forever tending towards the negative? When the worst thing you could imagine in life happens your innocence is shattered forever. You can no longer rely on the good old faithful "that will never happen [...]
I always laugh when I say the word "normal" now. Like many other words since Benjamin died, it feels like it has taken on a completely different meaning. It is getting up every day, going to work, talking to people (usually with a fake smile on my face), feeling sad, often shedding a tear and [...]
First Published at Still Standing Magazine How do you learn to get comfortable with your grief? It is so all-consuming that you soon learn to hate it, wishing it would just go away. But what if fighting against it only makes it worse? Accepting that grief is a part of your new life may be [...]
As bereaved parents it’s not often we get an opportunity to have our voices heard. It’s even less often we get the opportunity to contribute to some meaningful change around Stillbirth. So to get both of these together is pretty special. In Australia, a Senate inquiry into Stillbirth Research and Education has been opened. The [...]
Benjamin's Light 