After suffering the untimely loss of any loved one big milestone celebrations just serve as another cruel reminder of what you’ve lost and what you will never have again. The finality of death stares you straight in the face, the acceptance of your new reality impossible to escape. Any last strands of hope that your [...]
As I sat in the hospital room holding Benjamin’s lifeless body in my arms I truly felt that there could never be any joy for me in the world again. How could there be without him? How could I ever smile again after giving birth to my first child who would never open his eyes, [...]
As I sit here and write this blog I’m waiting in Sydney airport to fly to the States. I feel paralysed with anxiety and fear and I cannot explain why. Travelling is one of my favourite things in life. Normally I would be sitting here restless with excitement at the thought of exploring somewhere new. [...]
I had a really good week last week. I was so full of enthusiasm, so full of life. It was a refreshing change to all the sadness. This week, however, has not been good. I feel like I’m on a knife-edge, bursting into tears at a moment’s notice. It feels different to other bad weeks [...]
A lot of things have taken me by surprise through this journey - the intensity of my emotions, the depths of despair, discovering hope when I thought there was none. The list could go on and on. One of the biggest revelations for me, however, has been the number of people who have ignored the [...]
Benjamin's Light 