I didn't think that I would ever be ready to return to work after losing Benjamin. After he died everything just seemed so pointless. I had no motivation to do anything. The thought of actually caring whether I reached a made-up deadline at work seemed ridiculous. The thought of facing all the looks of pity [...]
“2018 will be a better year for you” I have been told over and over again with an enthusiasm and wilful desire that almost makes me believe it. For most looking from the outside in it must seem like the worst year of my life, and in many ways it was. But it was also [...]
So I’ve made it through my first Christmas without Benjamin. I would love to be able to write about the endless positives that shone through. I would love to be able to tell you that despite all the sadness I still felt hope and happiness. The truth is that I just felt so desperately sad, [...]
Christmas this year is looming over me like a dark cloud. With each week that passes I feel more and more suffocated, almost trapped. I feel like I want to get out, to escape. I have a deep yearning to hide away from the rest of the world and only reappear once all the festivities [...]
I have been thinking about writing this blog for a while now and after the launch of the new Tommy’s #SleeponSide campaign yesterday and people’s varying reactions to it I can’t hold back my thoughts any longer. When Benjamin died I was completely blindsided. I had followed all of the advice I had been given. [...]
Benjamin's Light 